“Living is like tearing through a museum. Not until later do you really start absorbing what you saw, thinking about it, looking it up in a book, and remembering―because you can’t take it in all at once.”—Audrey Hepburn (via decrepito)
My parents started talking to me about college. And they went off about how they hope I can get into this one school that’s roughly half an hour away.
But I really, really don’t want to go anywhere remotely near this town. I’m so sick of it here. I feel suffocated enough after spending my entire life in this one spot. I don’t think I could make it another four years knowing that it was either there or somewhere else that would be open to exploration.
I literally have five huge piles of papers out in front of me right now. I’m not even close to finishing euro and I haven’t started physics yet. :( I doubt I’ll sleep much, if I even do sleep, tonight.
The only thing that’s keeping me going at this point is the fact that in 24 hours, I’ll be at home with only one more midterm to take.
We’re officially halfway through the school year!! Only 90 more days of junior year, and then freedom. <3
I really need to go study, so I’ll try making this short.
Today I did absolutely nothing. I didn’t learn anything, and I didn’t even get to study as much as I had hoped. In gym, we did yoga/pilates for the first half of the period in the main gym since apparently there’s ringworm in the wrestling room…(lol how gross, omg). Then I played some basketball with my friends for the remainder of the period. It wasn’t bad. After that, I went to chem review for my first enhancement. I literally spent the whole period talking to my one friend who was there. And after, we went to the gym for our course selection assembly with the sophomores. I seriously don’t know what the point of that was. All I felt were feelings of bittersweet-ness. I’m really, really excited to be a senior next year, but it got me thinking about my current horrifying grades and I got sad all over again. Then they talked to us about junior prom, and everyone started getting super excited again. Afterwards, I went to lunch where they were giving out free soft pretzels for midterms which I thought was pretty nice of the administration. I went to physics after lunch and spent the entire period getting distracted by everyone. We were literally the only corner in the room talking. Everyone was crowded around my desk, but I was trying to study chem the whole time. …It didn’t work. :( So then I went to euro where we had the class period to review the old tests. My teacher started telling us about his high school life, and later he came up to me to talk about track. LOL.
Then I went to track where literally over half the team was skipping. Ugh what. We did 4 300 strides and then 4 boxes around the main gym. And my coach announced the people in the meet tomorrow. I was supposed to run the open 400, but I told him that I was going to be in Long Island tomorrow and couldn’t go because it was a family thing. Right.
Then I got home and my neighbor rang the doorbell to try to sell some Girl Scout cookies. My dad ended up buying four boxes of Thin Mints. Omg. :’) At least this’ll ease some of the horror that makes up this weekend…
Alright, I need to go. Good luck with midterms, everyone!!
I love falling asleep to thunderstorms, winter sunrises, summer nights, hearing my favorite song on the radio, long drives, the sound of the ocean, caramel steamers, the silliness of giraffes, late-night conversations, opening a new can of tennis balls, the feeling after a long run, the first snowfall of the season, the feeling in my stomach when the plane takes off, time differences, San Francisco, signing a painting, How I Met Your Mother, reading a good book, helping out a friend, and words with beautiful meanings.
I’m sorry this is more than one thing, but I needed this.